Saturday, November 7, 2009


I'm trapped in this body that used to be capable of so much and could take me anywhere. I'm still an adventurous, competitive person underneath - who thrives on physical activity and constant stimulation. That may be the hardest thing I've had to let go of over the years. I want so bad to be able to step out on a court and play hard without worrying about the consequences to my body. I want to make it to Australia come March to see my friends and explore that country. I want to work again and feel the satisfaction of accomplishing something each day. I want to be able to keep up with Megan. I want to reach this fundraising goal and celebrate the victory. I want to see my niece and nephew grow up and maybe even have kids of my own. These are some of the things that motivate me to keep fighting...and this guy who keeps doing laps around the ward every hour - I'm coming for him as soon as they let me leave my room and "there will be some rubbing...cause rubbing is racing."

I sit in this hospital room with only my thoughts. I'm tired of TV, sick of laying down and had enough chillen. All I want to do is get out for some fresh air. Whenever I'd get sick as a kid my dad would always tell me to go out and get some fresh air. There is definitely some short term relief in that but it may not solve all my problems. Today though I'd settle for some short term relief and the rain on my face...


  1. Chad, I have enjoyed your blog...keep fighting!! And keep writing.
    YOU are our inspirationg!!

  2. Chad,
    We have never met but I have been following your journey for a number of years now. I remember one of the Mahony's telling me about you a long time ago, then Christy Wilson speaking about your amazing spirit and now I simply check in with Megan to hear of your progress. I just wanted to say hello. I wanted to let you know that you have touched my life without even knowing it. Through your relentless promise to not give up you have inspired me to embrace each day. Thank you for taking the time and energy to share your story in this very real, at times humorous and courageous way. Thank you for sharing your heart and for reminding all of us to live each moment and let the rain simply fall. . . In admiration, thinking of you and Meg - amelia

  3. Thank goodness for this "crazy, dumb thing called Facebook" has allowed us all to get back in touch and follow you and your story. Wow Chad, you truly are amazing! I am so sorry you are having to go through this and I pray for you and your recovery everyday! THinking of you,

    Jamie (Lucas)